Patience is Key!

Hello!

I have such a hard time staying focused on my healing. I feel like I always jump back to bad habits. The habits that make me feel like garbage inside out and that I just don’t move forward. I have no many wants and desires for myself but getting there seems like the hardest thing ever

Staying true to my diet and my physical fitness so that I don’t have ankle pain or fall into a depression or to get a high cholesterol, again. Being on my game seems so hard but doing nothing at all is so easy. I want to be a motivator to get people into doing what is best for them but I feel like it’s a battle for me to get there

I don’t mean to be that hard on myself because I know that everyone grows on a different level. I just want to get all this done. I’m so tired of waiting. I just want to move forward with myself. 

I’m not going to finish this with some intense mission statement like I usually do, I just want to mention that things aren’t easy. Things take time. It’s great to be easy on yourself but also, realize when enough is enough. I have a million and one excuses not do what I need to get done. I know what I need to do to get over these hurdles, I just keep making the choice not to. For me, right now, its all about choice. 

I look at other people and their success and start believing that everyone else is better than me at putting things out there or finding their own theme. Forgetting that I have my own vibe and my own principles that I stick to make my brand my own. I have the power within myself.

It’s the process that gets me, the middle bit. Once I start, I want results immediately. I’m trying to practice patience. It’s always been hard for me to be patient.

Thanks for reading!

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The Djenne Diet

Hello, Homies

I’ve been pescatarian-ish for the past few years. I’ve had my meat slip-ups. I have a deep love for chicken tenders, hot wings and I have cravings for a really good steak. Even though I know that meat makes my uterus throw a fit. Eating meat has turned into a form of self-harm. Copious amounts of dairy have been doing the same.

I want to quickly mention the huge stigma there is on being vegan. There are so many vegans who shame the shit out of those who eat meat and act as if going vegan is easy and that everyone should go vegan. Which is totally not true at all. I sometimes go a few weeks vegan and then I get sick or my body gets too cold because I’m a bit anemic. The thing about cutting meat out of your diet is that you’re taking some important vitamins out of your body and so, you’re not getting all the nutrients you need. For me, going vegan, I’d need to take daily supplements for me to stay healthy or finding vegan options that give the same amount of nutrients.

Because my body hates when I eat both dairy and meat, I’ve been wanting to go vegan and I reached out to my vegan friends for their tips and tricks. I’ve heard that watching one of those videos where the kill animals help but… I will not be doing that.

My issue with going fro pescatarian to vegan is creating meals that are filling and flavorful. My thing is that I like constant change in my meals and I have yet to master the art of finessing a vegan menu. I have fake chicken nuggets and tenders, I have some vegan sage sausage and bacon. I have things stocked up. While writing this, I just created an entire meal that I could eat. I think in my transition, it would benefit me if I wrote out things that I can eat every day.

This whole thing is a process and I don’t want to force myself. I ease myself out of eating seafood. Which is harder than not eating meat because I LOVE lobster and crabs and shrimp. I might just cut back on some seafood and cut out the dairy.

Also, there is something called Seagans. Vegans who eat seafood. I thought it was funny because vegans just don’t eat meat at all. You’re simply a pescatarian. I’m gonna be pescatarian until I do more research. I want to become vegan in my own way instead of following other people’s journey.

Right now, I’ll just be incorporating healthier option into my diet. more water, fruits, and vegetables! I am going out for dinner tonight but tomorrow, dinner will be either vegan mac and cheese, a salad and vegan nuggets bathed in hot wing sauce or some pasta with vegan sage sausage.

I just really needed to write it out to sort out my shit.

Thanks for reading!

Introducing Joe-Ann Mathias

Hey!

I’ve been wanting to have guest writers on my site for a while and my best friend and the beautiful poet, Joe-Ann is the very first person! Without further ado, here she is! Give her a round of applause

Thinkin Bout You…

I look up at the clock and it’s 11:11pm…  I close my eyes and I Make A Wish …a wish for you, A wish where you’d finally see my worth and come to your senses so later we could hook up naked with a hope to be in each other’s arms In order for you to feel what I feel for you. our skin touching, our bodies moving entwined while we lose our minds, we cum hard & senselessly … opening my eyes now I am interrupted by the hot wetness that is between my thighs… I Smile, this is what you do to me, returning to reality … 12:00am …. thinking of having you always takes up my time. I just wish you were already mine. – @JoeannLyn

Here’s the lil blurb about me: 

 Hey Guys!! My Names Joe-Ann & I’m 23 years young ♥️ Creativity has always been my thing! As a woman, I feel it is extremely important that I let my creativity pour out in the things that I do, say, wear, fuck, and eat! I’m all about togetherness & love. 

“When we empower women, society benefits, grows, and thrives “- Paul Polman 

PRIDE BOOKS!🏳️‍🌈

Howdy!

As a fellow LGBTQ+ person I’d like to say, HAPPY PRIDE MONTH!

I am so excited to go to the parade this year and finally go to a gay bar!

I don’t talk about my sexuality much, very few actually know that I’m bisexual but, I am! Just wanted to get that off my chest.

NOW! LGBTQ+ books that I’ve read and want to read!

Read:

I’ll Give You the Sun by Jandy Nelson,
yea, I fucking sobbed reading this book. SO GOOD!
I'll Give You the Sun

Fun Home: A Family Tragicomic by Alison Bechdel
I read this a few years ago and I really related to it! it’s about the author’s childhood. Growing up with an alcoholic and abusive father and everyone telling her who to be.

Fun Home: A Family Tragicomic

Pretty much all of Cassandra Clare’s novels have a character in the LGBTQ+ community. I love Magnus Bane and Alec Lightwood. The fae are like all gay, I love Mark Blackthorn and all of his romances. Hellen Blackthorn is super gay and I love it!

Lord of Shadows

Lord of Shadows (The Dark Artifices, #2)

 

Aristotle and Dante Discover the Secrets of the Universe by Benjamin Alire Sáenz

My heavenly goodness! This freaking book!!! GEEZ LOUISE! I can’t wait for book two!

Aristotle and Dante Discover the Secrets of the Universe (Aristotle and Dante Discover the Secrets of the Universe, #1)

The Freaking Raven Cycle by Maggie Stiefvater

GAVE ME FUCKING LIFE, MAN! I love my baby Ronan

The Dream Thieves (The Raven Cycle, #2)

Want to Read:

Furyborn by Clair Legrand

I got the book from work. Back when I worked at Barnes and noble, we got ARCs all the time and I picked it up. I am excited to read this babe!

Furyborn (Empirium, #1)

The Upside of Unrequited by Becky Albertalli

Won it at BookCon, the OwlCrate booth! Holla, homies!

The Upside of Unrequited

Labyrinth Lost by Zoraida Córdova

I keep seeing press for the second book, Bruja Born and I want to be in on the hype.

Labyrinth Lost (Brooklyn Brujas, #1)

Runaways, Vol. 1: Find Your Way Home by Rainbow Rowell

First of all, I love Rainbow Rowell. Second of all, have you freaking seen Runaways on Hulu? It’s so good! I love Marvel TV shows.

Runaways, Vol. 1: Find Your Way Home

Tell me if I missed anything! Comment below with some recommendations. I’m trying to catch up on my gay lit. Nah, mean? I love gay characters. Can everyone stop being so hetero? Every book I read, some girl is fawning over some dude or vice versa. Give me some girls loving girls.

I’m gonna drop a few of my fave shows with some awesome leads. Brooklyn 99, The Bold Type (and I will fight anyone because The Bold Type is such a big inspiration for me).I just finished One Day at a Time and golly gee that shows is awesome. They touch on so many awesome topics, being gay, being an immigrant in America, having mental health issues. It’s amazing!

I hope you all enjoy this month of rainbows and fun. Life your best lives. Stay positive!

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Capsule Wardrobe

Hey lovelies,

So, because I travel to and from school a few times a year, I started to notice how much clothes I don’t wear. I carried bags of clothing to and from school, tiring myself when I spend most of college wearing sweatshirts and leggings.

I finally decided to throw away a bunch of the clothes I don’t wear and start creating what the cool kids call a “capsule wardrobe”.

A Capsule wardrobe is when you keep just about 40 items of clothing in your wardrobe. My difficulty is that I have so much loungewear. I learned about it from Lucy Moon. One of my favorite bloggers/youtubers. She made videos where she discusses the wardrobe( 1, 2, 3).

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Anywho, the first step is giving them to friends and then I’m just going to send them all to charities, my family sends our clothes to a church called St. Mary’s. It’s far better to give clothes away than to throw them out.

I’m gradually becoming a minimalist. I’m throwing out so much. The less clutter, the clearer the mind.

I noticed while going through my stuff that most of my clothes are just sweatshirts and t-shirts so along with this capsule wardrobe, I want to buy some professional clothing. Button downs and chinos. Fancy flats that don’t murder my flat feet. I think the coolest thing about this is that I can still shop but for the clothes that perfectly fit my body and style instead of just impulse buying. I don’t mind having a few select pieces to wear. Neutral tones and clothes that compliment my body.

I’m really excited to start it all. I just need to be mindful of the clothes in my closet and stop keeping shit just for the memory. My aim is to have a wardrobe full of complimentary clothes that are representative of the person I am now. I’m really digging this. I plan on getting my sister to join me on this journey and to keep updates! Look out!

Thanks for reading!

 

 

 

 

My First BookCon

Hello all,

I am writing from bed. I’ve been flu level sick for the past two days. It’s been so shitty but I am feeling well enough to sit upright and write.

Anyways, this Saturday I went to my very first BookCon and it was freaking awesome! I’ve never gone to any book related conventions so this year, I decided to treat myself.

I went alone because I don’t have any friends who are avid readers and would have enjoyed going to the convention or even paying for the ticket. I wouldn’t have enjoyed going with someone who didn’t have the same passion for books as I do.

Somehow I wasn’t nervous at all about going, I did so much research before I went because I wanted to find out what I should expect and what ARCs (Advanced Readers Copies) would drop. I love that the bookish community shared their experiences on how to navigate the convention. It was very helpful. It was comforting knowing what to expect.

I woke up super early and brought snacks, which was recommended. The convention is so busy. I didn’t expect to stand in lines for most of the time I was there. I was expecting to get a bunch of ARCs for books that I enjoy reading because I saw people who went to BookExpo had some great ones. All the books I received, I haven’t heard of at least I have the chance to get to know some new authors.

Speaking of authors, Tomi Adeyemi who wrote Children of Blood and Bone signed my book! And she almost stole my pen. Lol. I am a complete fangirl for her and it’s insane that she is only two years older than me and is signed for a movie deal and is already writing her trilogy.

At BookCon, I met a few bookstagrammers and book bloggers which have given me the inspiration to create more. I love the community of book lovers and I want to join. Bookish events would be so much better if I came with friends who were just as passionate as I am.

For my very first time at BookCon, I don’t have much advice to give. Just to go, don’t be afraid to go alone. I didn’t go last year because I didn’t have anyone to go with but I’m happy I didn’t let it stop me this year. There are people who also go alone so just be open to meeting new people.

Well, here is a list of all that I got from BookCon:
The Upside of Unrequited by Becky Albertalli
Under My Skin by Lisa Unger
Sawkill Girls by Claire Legrand
Born Criminal by Angelica Shirley Carpenter
Love Me, Love Me Not by SM Koz
Making Friends by Kristen Gudsnuk
Maiden Voyage by Sarah Jane
Lone Wolf Lawman by Delores Fossen
Devil in Tartan by Julia London

I might do a giveaway because I have so many books that I would like to giveaway. I loved BookCon. I want to go to more bookish/writing events in the future!

Thanks for reading!

May Wrap-Up

Hello, homies

I read far fewer books than I initially anticipated. I didn’t think I’d need so much time to rest after the semester ended. I kind of thought I’d be able to jump back into the swing of things but as you know, I chilled out a lot.

I’ve been rereading the Mortal Instruments series, I finished City of Glass and now I’m onto City of Fallen Angels. I really do enjoy this series. Now that I’m rereading it. I noticed that it’s kind of like its own fanfiction. Like Cassandra Clare loved her characters so much she gives them certain victories. Shipping her own characters. It’s biblical fanfiction turned into loving its own fanfiction. I love this shit.

City of Glass (The Mortal Instruments, #3)City of Fallen Angels (The Mortal Instruments, #4)

I finished reading Children of Blood and Bone. It gets 6/5 stars. It’s so good. I have the audiobook and I want to reread it before I write up my very first book review on this site. I freaking love Tomi Adeyemi. It sucks that I can’t see her at BookCon this weekend but I am still excited to go. I have a BookCon ticket for this Saturday. I can’t wait.

Children of Blood and Bone (Legacy of Orïsha, #1)

I finished The Celestine Prophecy, I gave it 3/5 stars because though the information given was perfect and well needed. I feel like there was a lot of rambling and unnecessary information. I found it hard to read at certain points. I love that the intention of the book is to be handed from person to person and that it is about life giving you what you need in certain moments. Some things just felt forced.

The Celestine Prophecy (Celestine Prophecy, #1)

I think it’s funny how little I read. I honestly thought that I read a lot but looking at this list… It makes sense though. No complaints. I know I’ll read more next month when I’m back on my feet.

A June TBR will be up soon!