Most Anticipated Books (Fall-Winter ’18)


I am back on my bookish flow. Excuse my lingo because I am watching Gilmore Girls and I’ve taken to speaking like them… yea, it’s frustrating me too.

Anyways, I am super excited about some of the awesome books coming out this Fall-Winter. I desperately wanted to get some ARCs at BookCon but I wasn’t so lucky.

but without further ado…

First, Kingdom of Ash I LOVE SARAH J. MASS! I can’t wait to finish the Throne of Glass series but I’m also dreading it. I’ve been so in love with this series. It’s bittersweet to see it go. It comes out October 23rd and it’s already preordered!

Kingdom of Ash (Throne of Glass, #7)

Vengeful by V.E Schwab, she is becoming one a new favorite author. I love her social media presence and her writing. I finished the Shades of Magic Trilogy and soon I will read Vicious and Monsters of Verity books. I cannot wait to finish reading all that she’s written because I think she is awesome. I love finding awesome new authors. I found her at BookCon during my hunt finding Tomi Adeyemi… MY QUEEN!

Vengeful (Villains, #2)

Wildcard by Marie Lu, I wanted to get this ARC so badly at BookCon and I didn’t get one!  Marie Lu was one of my first faves authors and I love her and her writing. I read the audiobooks for Warcross and it made me so happy during my semester!

Wildcard (Warcross #2)

Cruel Prince by Holly Black, I don’t know much about the book but I’m interested in reading more books by Holly Black. The book sounds so interesting.

The Cruel Prince (The Folk of the Air, #1)

Dance of Thieves by Mary E. Pearson. Once again, I haven’t been fangirling about the book but the author interests me and I’d like to read more!

Dance of Thieves (Dance of Thieves, #1)

Peace out! More bookish posts are coming soon!


My Summer So Far

Hello and please allow me to go the fuck off about this summer.

PSA: I plan on being hella raw and incredibly vague for those who are involved with this summer.

When this summer started, I had a list of all the things I wanted to do (check it out here). I’ve done some but the things I found most important are still undone. I wanted to write the first draft of my novel and create an entire outline for my senior project. I wanted to hang out with my friends that I hold so dear to me but… you know… things fall apart.

I knew from the very beginning of this summer that it was going to be about my own growth. I knew that this summer was gonna throw shit at me that I don’t want to even deal with. Like the reality that one of the relationships that I valued was going to go right down the toilet and that another one of my relationships was going to change in an uncomfortable but much-needed way.

People grow apart all the time. In my case, it was always because of a lack of communication. When I noticed that both of these relationships were falling apart, I reached out to them both. One of them listened and expressed their own concerns until we found a loving and mutual agreement and the other… well… I believe we are both lying to ourselves, each other and everyone about what we desire from the relationship. That lack of communication finally ended our relationship and as much as it hurts. I think it’s for the better. I am in no way shape or form ready to just move on from what felt like a very important part in my life so, I’ll allow myself to grieve and keep moving forward.

Relationships end whether you want them to or not.

I kept telling myself that I shouldn’t give up on people but at this moment, I am putting myself first.

Now onto my writing!

So, I got this CRAZY job opportunity where I am basically teaching these kids to be a bit more creative (it’s far more than that but long story short). This opportunity popped up out of the blue and then I kept getting slapped with a bunch more positivity like this dude from Barnes and Noble, who just happens to have graduated from my college and in the same major, offering to help me with my senior project. It was super wild how my life kept throwing positivity at me. I was so wrapped up in work and getting everything done perfectly that I completely forgot to look into my senior project work and to finish my draft of my novel.

I only have a month left of my summer and three weeks of work. HOw the hell will I squeeze in everything?  Thankfully, for my SP, all I really have to do is read books. That was all they asked of me. I was trying to go above and beyond since I wasn’t expecting to work.

I’m slightly overwhelmed but I am also super excited about attempting to finish it all up. This summer was not at all what I expected. I adopted a dog and realized the responsibility was bigger than I imagined so I gave him to a loving family. His name is CJ. This summer really REALLY tried it but I know that I will be ending this summer strong. I’m not sure when I’ll be writing again but I hope it’s soon.

My diary entry is now finished. LOL. Thanks for reading.

 P.S. I learned how to make Chai Lattes!

Patience is Key!


I have such a hard time staying focused on my healing. I feel like I always jump back to bad habits. The habits that make me feel like garbage inside out and that I just don’t move forward. I have no many wants and desires for myself but getting there seems like the hardest thing ever

Staying true to my diet and my physical fitness so that I don’t have ankle pain or fall into a depression or to get a high cholesterol, again. Being on my game seems so hard but doing nothing at all is so easy. I want to be a motivator to get people into doing what is best for them but I feel like it’s a battle for me to get there

I don’t mean to be that hard on myself because I know that everyone grows on a different level. I just want to get all this done. I’m so tired of waiting. I just want to move forward with myself. 

I’m not going to finish this with some intense mission statement like I usually do, I just want to mention that things aren’t easy. Things take time. It’s great to be easy on yourself but also, realize when enough is enough. I have a million and one excuses not do what I need to get done. I know what I need to do to get over these hurdles, I just keep making the choice not to. For me, right now, its all about choice. 

I look at other people and their success and start believing that everyone else is better than me at putting things out there or finding their own theme. Forgetting that I have my own vibe and my own principles that I stick to make my brand my own. I have the power within myself.

It’s the process that gets me, the middle bit. Once I start, I want results immediately. I’m trying to practice patience. It’s always been hard for me to be patient.

Thanks for reading!

The Djenne Diet

Hello, Homies

I’ve been pescatarian-ish for the past few years. I’ve had my meat slip-ups. I have a deep love for chicken tenders, hot wings and I have cravings for a really good steak. Even though I know that meat makes my uterus throw a fit. Eating meat has turned into a form of self-harm. Copious amounts of dairy have been doing the same.

I want to quickly mention the huge stigma there is on being vegan. There are so many vegans who shame the shit out of those who eat meat and act as if going vegan is easy and that everyone should go vegan. Which is totally not true at all. I sometimes go a few weeks vegan and then I get sick or my body gets too cold because I’m a bit anemic. The thing about cutting meat out of your diet is that you’re taking some important vitamins out of your body and so, you’re not getting all the nutrients you need. For me, going vegan, I’d need to take daily supplements for me to stay healthy or finding vegan options that give the same amount of nutrients.

Because my body hates when I eat both dairy and meat, I’ve been wanting to go vegan and I reached out to my vegan friends for their tips and tricks. I’ve heard that watching one of those videos where the kill animals help but… I will not be doing that.

My issue with going fro pescatarian to vegan is creating meals that are filling and flavorful. My thing is that I like constant change in my meals and I have yet to master the art of finessing a vegan menu. I have fake chicken nuggets and tenders, I have some vegan sage sausage and bacon. I have things stocked up. While writing this, I just created an entire meal that I could eat. I think in my transition, it would benefit me if I wrote out things that I can eat every day.

This whole thing is a process and I don’t want to force myself. I ease myself out of eating seafood. Which is harder than not eating meat because I LOVE lobster and crabs and shrimp. I might just cut back on some seafood and cut out the dairy.

Also, there is something called Seagans. Vegans who eat seafood. I thought it was funny because vegans just don’t eat meat at all. You’re simply a pescatarian. I’m gonna be pescatarian until I do more research. I want to become vegan in my own way instead of following other people’s journey.

Right now, I’ll just be incorporating healthier option into my diet. more water, fruits, and vegetables! I am going out for dinner tonight but tomorrow, dinner will be either vegan mac and cheese, a salad and vegan nuggets bathed in hot wing sauce or some pasta with vegan sage sausage.

I just really needed to write it out to sort out my shit.

Thanks for reading!

Introducing Joe-Ann Mathias


I’ve been wanting to have guest writers on my site for a while and my best friend and the beautiful poet, Joe-Ann is the very first person! Without further ado, here she is! Give her a round of applause

Thinkin Bout You…

I look up at the clock and it’s 11:11pm…  I close my eyes and I Make A Wish …a wish for you, A wish where you’d finally see my worth and come to your senses so later we could hook up naked with a hope to be in each other’s arms In order for you to feel what I feel for you. our skin touching, our bodies moving entwined while we lose our minds, we cum hard & senselessly … opening my eyes now I am interrupted by the hot wetness that is between my thighs… I Smile, this is what you do to me, returning to reality … 12:00am …. thinking of having you always takes up my time. I just wish you were already mine. – @JoeannLyn

Here’s the lil blurb about me: 

 Hey Guys!! My Names Joe-Ann & I’m 23 years young ♥️ Creativity has always been my thing! As a woman, I feel it is extremely important that I let my creativity pour out in the things that I do, say, wear, fuck, and eat! I’m all about togetherness & love. 

“When we empower women, society benefits, grows, and thrives “- Paul Polman 



As a fellow LGBTQ+ person I’d like to say, HAPPY PRIDE MONTH!

I am so excited to go to the parade this year and finally go to a gay bar!

I don’t talk about my sexuality much, very few actually know that I’m bisexual but, I am! Just wanted to get that off my chest.

NOW! LGBTQ+ books that I’ve read and want to read!


I’ll Give You the Sun by Jandy Nelson,
yea, I fucking sobbed reading this book. SO GOOD!
I'll Give You the Sun

Fun Home: A Family Tragicomic by Alison Bechdel
I read this a few years ago and I really related to it! it’s about the author’s childhood. Growing up with an alcoholic and abusive father and everyone telling her who to be.

Fun Home: A Family Tragicomic

Pretty much all of Cassandra Clare’s novels have a character in the LGBTQ+ community. I love Magnus Bane and Alec Lightwood. The fae are like all gay, I love Mark Blackthorn and all of his romances. Hellen Blackthorn is super gay and I love it!

Lord of Shadows

Lord of Shadows (The Dark Artifices, #2)


Aristotle and Dante Discover the Secrets of the Universe by Benjamin Alire Sáenz

My heavenly goodness! This freaking book!!! GEEZ LOUISE! I can’t wait for book two!

Aristotle and Dante Discover the Secrets of the Universe (Aristotle and Dante Discover the Secrets of the Universe, #1)

The Freaking Raven Cycle by Maggie Stiefvater

GAVE ME FUCKING LIFE, MAN! I love my baby Ronan

The Dream Thieves (The Raven Cycle, #2)

Want to Read:

Furyborn by Clair Legrand

I got the book from work. Back when I worked at Barnes and noble, we got ARCs all the time and I picked it up. I am excited to read this babe!

Furyborn (Empirium, #1)

The Upside of Unrequited by Becky Albertalli

Won it at BookCon, the OwlCrate booth! Holla, homies!

The Upside of Unrequited

Labyrinth Lost by Zoraida Córdova

I keep seeing press for the second book, Bruja Born and I want to be in on the hype.

Labyrinth Lost (Brooklyn Brujas, #1)

Runaways, Vol. 1: Find Your Way Home by Rainbow Rowell

First of all, I love Rainbow Rowell. Second of all, have you freaking seen Runaways on Hulu? It’s so good! I love Marvel TV shows.

Runaways, Vol. 1: Find Your Way Home

Tell me if I missed anything! Comment below with some recommendations. I’m trying to catch up on my gay lit. Nah, mean? I love gay characters. Can everyone stop being so hetero? Every book I read, some girl is fawning over some dude or vice versa. Give me some girls loving girls.

I’m gonna drop a few of my fave shows with some awesome leads. Brooklyn 99, The Bold Type (and I will fight anyone because The Bold Type is such a big inspiration for me).I just finished One Day at a Time and golly gee that shows is awesome. They touch on so many awesome topics, being gay, being an immigrant in America, having mental health issues. It’s amazing!

I hope you all enjoy this month of rainbows and fun. Life your best lives. Stay positive!


Thanks, cuties!

Capsule Wardrobe

Hey lovelies,

So, because I travel to and from school a few times a year, I started to notice how much clothes I don’t wear. I carried bags of clothing to and from school, tiring myself when I spend most of college wearing sweatshirts and leggings.

I finally decided to throw away a bunch of the clothes I don’t wear and start creating what the cool kids call a “capsule wardrobe”.

A Capsule wardrobe is when you keep just about 40 items of clothing in your wardrobe. My difficulty is that I have so much loungewear. I learned about it from Lucy Moon. One of my favorite bloggers/youtubers. She made videos where she discusses the wardrobe( 1, 2, 3).

morelinks here

Anywho, the first step is giving them to friends and then I’m just going to send them all to charities, my family sends our clothes to a church called St. Mary’s. It’s far better to give clothes away than to throw them out.

I’m gradually becoming a minimalist. I’m throwing out so much. The less clutter, the clearer the mind.

I noticed while going through my stuff that most of my clothes are just sweatshirts and t-shirts so along with this capsule wardrobe, I want to buy some professional clothing. Button downs and chinos. Fancy flats that don’t murder my flat feet. I think the coolest thing about this is that I can still shop but for the clothes that perfectly fit my body and style instead of just impulse buying. I don’t mind having a few select pieces to wear. Neutral tones and clothes that compliment my body.

I’m really excited to start it all. I just need to be mindful of the clothes in my closet and stop keeping shit just for the memory. My aim is to have a wardrobe full of complimentary clothes that are representative of the person I am now. I’m really digging this. I plan on getting my sister to join me on this journey and to keep updates! Look out!

Thanks for reading!