The Ups and Downs


So, last week, I thought I was getting so much better. I thought that I was getting better with my depression and I was accomplishing all that I needed. I started was eating less and I felt so organized. My meals were together and I was getting up early and doing things.  But then I spent like 4? maybe days in my room refusing to get out. I feel like my brain isn’t making sense. Like I’m not here and I get full so easily. I feel like something is wrong with me. I also feel so tired. (this paragraph was edited in and out of the funk. sorry to confuse you all.) I’d like to say that I’m out of it now because I am finally outside. I ate a whole bowl of chipotle and now I’m sitting in Starbucks drinking my fave, Vanilla soy chai latte. My appetite has totally changed but it’s whatever. I had a dope week though and I have so much dope shit to look forward to.

I had one amazing day with my best friend Joe-Ann. We were super productive and then walked around downtown Brooklyn laughing and enjoying each other’s company. The next day, I had a whole day walking around and laughing with my sister, nephew and my aunt. OH! yea, we bumped into my other nephew. I had so much fun laughing with my family.

Within last week, I found one of those little plastic drawers that I really wanted to get so I can put my makeup and hair stuff in. Then I found a bookshelf. A perfect bookshelf that I needed so badly. Now I can buy more books. HA!

My best friend since I was like 4 is coming back to Brooklyn and I can’t wait to hang out with her. I cried when she said that she was coming. I can’t wait to spend my time with her! By the time you read this, she will be home!

And…  I’ve always wanted to go to an allergist because my family has this crazy nasal congestion that I think we get because we are eating something or around something that we are all allergic to but don’t know it. I want to fucking experience the life allergy free! (this was past Djenne)

(this is present Djenne)
So, turns out that I am allergic to the environment, both inside and out. I got an allergic reaction to all the environmental stuff that they put on me. My only option is getting a shot of what I’m allergic to and build an immunity. I thought this was so funny. I’m allergic to the world. Next week, I’ll find out which foods I’m allergic to.

My best friend for my entire life, Tishonda is coming home and she hasn’t been home for so many damn years. I finally get to see her today! My best friend, Brandon is coming home soon and my yeasty meds are wearing off tomorrow then I can drink again! I have a bottle of wine in the fridge that I have been dying to drink! Plus, drinking with both my friends that are coming home.

I’ve been watching Shameless and I now realize that I shouldn’t watch it while writing in a Starbucks. Also, Jenny Lawson is an amazing writer. I am reading Let’s Pretend This Never Happened and it’s hilariously funny. I tried so hard keeping a straight face while listening to her book. She was talking about the time she was elbow deep in a cow’s vagina. READ IT! It’s good!


2 thoughts on “The Ups and Downs

  1. Hi Lady glad to see this post ended so much lighter than it began. I was sorry i didnt get to see you at the JAIA event last month.


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