Back at Schooool.

*I have not edited this*

Hey, again, I am back at school and I’m finally halfway settled in. All of my roommates just got here. Everyone is talking about all of the accomplishments they plan on achieving this semester. Whether over-ambitious or not, I am so excited for all of my friends.

I don’t know if I can express how excited I am for this semester, I know it will be hard but I’m excited to get through it. My roommates are planning on having morning workouts and eating healthy. Sleeping early and getting up early. They also want to “read more”.

My goals are not to be overwhelmed with the stress that will happen this semester. I don’t want to be stressed by everyone. I want to take my time. I want to get into a relationship (dating). I want to feel fulfilled in my class and I also want to be a kick-ass cheese president.

I noticed that I’m not very open with my friends because of their feelings. It’s another thing I need to learn how to manage. I spent the summer that was so life changing. I just hope that I can incorporate that into my life. I know last semester was filled with width stress and anxiety. I just hope this semester goes smoothly… AND I WANT TO BE IN A RELATIONSHIP. I AM OVER THIS SINGLE LIFE!

YOU FINNA DATE????

Lol. Peace. Tell your friends I’m single and looking for someone positive… and funny… and is understanding… and spiritual… Let’s just see how it goes.

Also, watch these videos. Tarot for your zodiac sign.

https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCeTmT_c5Tv2SHIQF2iRtaIA

https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCc_sDAwu8hF0UClsYotlFuA

https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCObG5sr-aGfQaOt0zV-ylnA

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Back to School

Guess who is starting this blog post off while in a meeting!… and woke up sick and sneezing all morning.

So much has gone on in such a short amount of time, I don’t feel like I can catch you up. So, as some of y’all know, I am the co-president of Cheese Club on campus and because of this, I was able to come to school early with my friend and Treasurer, Jade. We had a long and exhausting day filled with meetings and information that I don’t even remember.

I am excited and nervous to become a leader of a club. I’m so thankful I have my friends with me.

This post will be short and sweet. Actually, I am done. I know that my posts will need to come up with a different schedule because this semester will be A LOT. The same will happen to my videos… If you watch them. This is my junior year. Let’s get it going. Classes start Monday!

Peace out, girl scout.✌🏾

College Masterpost, y’all

Here are discounts and tips and tricks with going to school whether it’s your first time or you’re returning.

Places you can go and shop and get college discounts:
Unidays shows you most places that have these discounts. There’s also an app.

I’m only naming a few but unidays will show them all.

Bed, Bath and Beyond
Urban Outfitters
Apple Music
Lyft
Megabus
BH Cosmetics
ZipCar
ASOS
Missguided
Doc Martens
Glasses USA
Best Buy

Time for a shit ton of websites!:

http://www.bestcollegesonline.com/blog/100-stores-that-give-a-student-discount/

http://www.businessinsider.com/college-student-discount-brands-2017-1/#news-and-entertainment-2

https://www.hercampus.com/career/money/35-stores-student-discounts

Okay, now. WORK ON CAMPUS… if you can. it’s obviously more convenient and I know for me, it’s cheaper because if my school’s bus fucks up, my no license ass will need to order a lift or uber which is 20 bucks! Or, invest in your license and get a zip car.

Join the club with like-minded people. Whether you like the club or not, you might meet people. I am now the Co-President of Cheese Club on campus and I’m so excited! I also want to join more clubs with my fellow black students.

If you need help with your writing or math… whatever. The school has resources. Just go, I was too stubborn to go to them and Ummm… it reflected in my grades. Just do it. Look into all that the school has because it’s so helpful.

We have a doctor who does gynecological exams. I got my first pap smear in college! And it helps me get rid of the colds that I always get year round.

I also have therapy on campus and groups that can help and support students during the semester. Look into these things because it’s so helpful.

Try and find a place that you can baby yourself because in a dorm with a bunch of people around you, it can be stressful to try and find it. My place is the cages in the basement of the library. It’s a small room that’s “soundproof” I sit by myself, do homework or just watch Netflix by myself. It’s so nice.

Take some time off campus with your friends to get real food. You NEED to try and fit in some #TreatYoSelf days. It can get exhausting being on campus all the time with shitty food. Even a quick chipotle can help you out. Sometimes, my friends and I would go to PF Chang during happy hour to get some food for cheap. Maybe use those student discounts and take yourself shopping. Budgeted of course. I’m not telling you to spend hundreds. Just a ten or a twenty. It gets stressful.

Speaking of stress, if you can, take a bath, light a candle, get a nice smelling lotion, use a shower melt with some calming smell. Be more mindful of the things you do and your self-care. Push aside what you need to study for and focus on your health. Easier said than done. I want to try and take my own advice.

College is supposed to be fun and stressful and a whole experience. Make sure you allow yourself some chill. My friends and I have nights during finals or midterms where we sit together and study. We’d sip wine or eat snacks and chat during our study breaks. I swear those nights are the most memorable. Being deliriously tired and enjoying each other’s company.

Oh! and for foods for cheap, BRANDLESS. Everything is $3.

Have any advice? There’s them comments!

Ha! Omg. The next post y’all see, I’ll be at school. OMG. The schedule may change and if it does. I’ll let you know. I need to make sure this blog doesn’t stress me out. Nah, mean!

PEACE OUT!

Crystals and Herbs🔮

I started writing this summer because I’ve gotten to a point where the depression and anxiety that I had started to make me worried. I was so worried about what I’d do or feel and so, I started writing. Writing here has made me so positive and feel so free.

Now that I’m going back to school in less than a week, I realized that I might fall back into only habits or feelings. I started looking into ways to keep my energy positive.

I am a very spiritual person. I’m all about meditative practices, being one with the environment, trusting in the universe. All that Jazz. So, it wasn’t much of a stretch when I decided to look into Crystals and Herbs. If I’m completely honest, this all stemmed from me rewatching Charmed on Netflix and getting curious about being a witch. There, I learned about the benefits that certain crystals and herbs had and how they can alter your energy.

I started buying some crystals on my own. These are them and the benefits:

Bloodstone: Courage, survival, adaptability, release blockages, renewal, strength, victory, intuitive decision making, banishing, abundance, invisibility.
Healing lore: Intense healing, emotional trauma, anemia, blood diseases, blood pressure, cardiovascular system, endocrine system, renal system, genitourinary system, physical trauma, post-surgical recovery.

Citrine: Success, intuition, comfort, creativity, physical energy, wealth, mental awakening, clarity, protection, good fortune/luck, decrease nightmares, remove toxins.
Healing lore: Depression, mood swings, trauma, digestion, sleep disturbances, thyroid, general health, heart, kidney, liver, muscles, strength, endocrine system, circulatory system, tissue regeneration, genitourinary system, immune system, fibromyalgia, addictions, OCD.

Rose Quartz: Love of all kinds including self-love, protection during pregnancy and childbirth, peace, happiness, gentleness.
Healing lore: Emotional wounds, cardiovascular system, circulatory system, fertility, headaches, renal disease, migraines, sexual dysfunction, sinus problems, throat problems, depression, addictions, ear aches, slows signs of aging in general, reduces wrinkles, spleen problems, fibromyalgia, and reaching one’s ideal weight/weight loss.

Tiger’s Eye: Self-discipline, practicality, protection, grounding, peace, clarity, intelligence, intuition & psychic powers, new experiences, financial stability, calmness, releasing inhibitions, integrity, willpower, prosperity, personal power.
Healing lore: Heal wounds/bruises, digestion, stomach problems, eyesight, night vision, pain relief, alcoholism, reproductive system.

Now, these are what I want.

Amethyst: Addiction of all kinds; Stability, peace, calm, balance, courage, and inner strength. Protection against psychic attacks. Stimulates telepathy and psychic abilities; good for meditation and dreamwork, past life work, or to help visualize your life path. Ease pain and grief/bring upon happiness. Beneficial for legal problems and money issues/leads to prosperity and abundance. Protection for travelers.
Healing lore: Addictions, alcoholism, headaches, insomnia, arthritis, pain relief, circulatory system, endocrine system, chronic fatigue, fibromyalgia, immune system deficiencies, asthma, migraines, phobias, pregnancy/preventing miscarriage, menopause, PMS, and general healing.

Azurite: “Stone of Heaven”, intuition, dreams, healing, insight, stilling the mind, concentration, self-transformation, meditation, control energy.
Healing lore: Prevent cancer, liver, arthritis, joints, depression, sinuses, and skin problems.

Garnet: Remove negativity, romantic love, passion, sensuality, intimacy, career success, self-confidence, protection from evil, awareness, commitment, regeneration, order, insight.
Healing lore: General health, cellular regeneration, blood disorders, cardiovascular system, respiratory system.

Jade: Fidelity, dreams, the realization of potential, peace, accord, resourcefulness, accomplishment, emotional balance, protection.
Healing lore: Cardiovascular system, renal system, general illness.

Jasper (All Types): Protection, nurturing, joy, awareness, relaxation, tranquility, wholeness, astral travel, Yin/Yang.
Healing lore: Hepatic system, digestive system, gallbladder.

Lapis Lazuli: Manifestation, wisdom, truthfulness, openness, communication, inner power, intuition, spiritual evolution, virility, self-confidence, objectivity, dreams, purity, serenity, guardian spirits, love & fidelity within marriage, protection.
Healing lore: Sinus ailments, insomnia, depression, recurring fevers, vision, hearing impairment, throat, lungs, immune system.

Moonstone: Introspection, reflection, beginnings, insight, tenderness, harmony, peace, travel, intuition, psychic abilities, protection (especially during pregnancy, childbirth, travel at sea), substitute for a pearl in crystal healing.
Healing lore: Pituitary gland, digestive system, obesity, water retention, edema, hormonal problems, menstrual problems.

Onyx: Self-control, decision making, conquer challenges, intuition, recognition of personal strengths, grounding, banishing, and protection.
Healing lore: Stamina, childbirth, wound healing.

I found this blog with a list and got carried away. I found pretty much all of my info on Tumblr.

I found that I can buy them on wish.com but since I haven’t received any as of yet, I won’t say it’s a credible source. I actually read that it wasn’t but I want to test it myself.

I’ve been gardening indoors for a year now and I was surprised to find that some herbs had beneficial qualities to my environment and my energy. These are what I have and their benefits.

Basil: Banishing Negativity, Spell Breaking, Protection, Purification, Bless/Consecrate, Luck, Success, Money, Wealth, Prosperity, Wishes, Strength, Love, Romance, Sex, Lust, Fidelity, Fertility, Truth, Honesty, Peace, Harmony, Happiness, Positivity, Balance, Fire

Lavender: Mental/Psychic Powers/Development/Awareness, Sleep, Dreams, Protection, Purification, Luck, Money, Concentration, Memory, Love, Romance, Sex, Lust, Chastity, Virility, Fertility, Peace, Harmony, Relaxation, Healing/Health, Alleviate Depression, Anti-Anxiety, Stress Relief, Happiness, Positivity, Balance, Air, Longevity

Rosemary: Banishing Negativity, Wisdom, Knowledge, Mental/Psychic Powers/Development/Awareness, Sleep, Dreams, Nightmare Protection, Protection, Cleansing, Purification, Bless/Consecrate, Luck, Wish, Inspiration, Strength, Bravery, Courage, Confidence, Memory, Beauty, Love, Romance, Sex, Lust, Fidelity, Honesty, Truth, Peace, Harmony, Meditation, Healing/Health, Alleviate Depression, Air, Legal Issues, Longevity

Spearmint:  Sleep, Dreams, Lucid Dreaming, Remembering Dreams, Nightmare Protection, Protection, Bless/Consecrate, Luck, Success, Money, Wealth, Prosperity, Wishes, Strength, Love, Romance, Sex, Lust, Healing/Health, Anti-Anxiety, Stress Relief, Happiness, Positivity, Air, Animals, Travel

I want:
Sage (not necessarily white sage): Wisdom, Knowledge, Protection, Psychic Protection, Purification, Bless/Consecrate, Wealth, Prosperity, Wishes, Inspiration, Love, Romance, Sex, Lust, Weddings/Marriage/Handfasting, Peace, Harmony, Meditation, Healing/Health, Air, Longevity

Chamomile: Sleep, Dreams, Nightmare Protection, Protection, Purification, Luck, Money, Wealth, Prosperity, Beauty, Love, Romance, Peace, Harmony, Meditation, Relaxation, Healing/Health, Alleviate Depression, Anti-Anxiety, Stress Relief, Water

I’ve been learning about the elements and just all things and aspects to this “witchy” business. I’m so fascinated. We don’t judge here so don’t judge. I just want to find a way to keep mine out of those dark places that I tend to get into.

I noticed that I’ve been drawn to water, all aspects of water. Meaning the water signs. I subconsciously enjoy the thing that has to do with water signs and I’m trying to figure out why. I am a Capricorn which means that I am an earth sign and I’m thinking it’s because I want to be easier going. To go with the flow instead of being stone still. Contemplating the world instead of just living in it. I think out everything before I actually do it. I want to be able to just do things that I enjoy.

Anyway, super long post with loads of info so I’ll just chill. If you’re interested, ask away or do some research yourself.

See ya next week!

Here’s some links:

https://wicca.com/celtic/herbal/magickalb.htm

The Bold Type

Hello! So, this is on the go blogging. I have been so busy these past few days that I haven’t been able to write or edit a video. My only chill time is when I’m exhausted and watching Charmed.

I have a head cold that’s making my head all wonky, b
are with all of my wordings if they’re weird.

Today is Tuesday which means one of my favorite shows is coming on… The Bold Type! it shows up on Freeform. Ugh! Okay. So, this show is all about powerful and bold women. Women who embrace their sexualities and are confident and are taking on their lives and in control and just. GAH! EVERYTHING! I love this show. I love shows where I can see women in powerful roles. Who isn’t getting belittled by the men around them? It’s so inspirational. Sometimes, I rewatch episodes just to give me the power to get through my day.

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Watching this show made me wonder what else is out there that’s all about inspiring women. That embraces all things women and don’t shy away from issues because it’s taboo. I initially wanted to find more TV shows but I had no luck.

I was on YouTube checking my watch later and that’s where I started watching Grace F. Victory. That’s when I noticed all the videos she makes and how encouraging she is to all women everywhere and how she is so fine with embracing all of who she is. He mental health, her body, her past, everything. She shares everything and watching her videos make me feel so comfortable with being myself. She makes me want to keep creating and being my authentic self.

Here’s her YouTube channel: https://www.youtube.com/user/UglyFaceOfBeauty
Her Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/gracefvictory/
The link to her book: amzn.to/2nRy6tn

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Next, I wanted to know what is something out there that’s like the magazine in The Bold Type? What is out there to inspire us to be ourselves fully and will give us tips and tricks? Then I remembered that I stay looking at the news tabs on Snapchat and that’s where I saw Refinery 29. They also have a website and everything about them is amazing. They have tips and advice for everything. It’s so comfortable and girls and totally empowering.
Check them out on snapchat! I read it from there every day.
And their site!: http://www.refinery29.com
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I am a huge lover of books so of course, I looked to those beauties. The first book I thought of was Throne of Glass by Sarah J. Maas. She is a fucking kick-ass assassin who falls in love and reads books. She gets her period. She’ll murder you in your bed and she loves kids and animals. Just…. what more can you ask for? I absolutely love this book series. I love Sarah J. Maas as an author. Celaena Sardothien is a fucking badass woman!
It’s on Goodreads
And Amazon
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And for music, SZA is my love and she loves women and her music makes me feel so chill and zen about me and my life. Her music makes me feel safe to feel things and express myself and to know my worth. I have a huge girl crush on her.

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That’s all folks! If ya’ll haven’t noticed the pattern, posts are made every Monday or Tuesday and Friday.

 

Holla at yo growth

Okay, so this summer is coming to an end and to that I say, THANK GOD. I hate the summer. Give me all those autumn feels. Give me fucking layers and cozy ass blankets. Fuck the beach. Nah meaaaann???

Now, at the start of this summer, I knew something was gonna go on. I did not want the summer to start because I was so reluctant to experience the growth I knew I’d make all summer. Even while the summer started, I kept hearing all this great advice that I knew I should take but I was so stubborn. I closed my ears to all of it.

I was fine with improving my physical health but when it came emotional improvement and being a better friend and person to everyone. I was being so damn stink.

It wasn’t until like two weeks ago when I really started to accept that this summer was meant for growth. I started to really notice and acknowledge the people around me. I started focusing on my feelings and how my actions can affect others. It came in like a wave, the realization that being this stubborn and closed off person is not helping anyone. I need to chatting and being open to my friends about my feelings and opinions because when you’re not, you’re just holding yourself back. That fear of the unknown definitely holds you back and I am tired of being scared and closed off to everything so I’m gonna be wide open… like deeeez legs… Just kidding but really. Express yo self and stay free.

Stay positive, stay popping, pop that pussy for a real nigga.

Being Bold When You’re a Punk

So, I see this blog as sort of a diary. Lately I’ve been thinking about my fears.

I have a great fear of rejection. I hate being told no. Maybe it’s just everyone’s need to be accepted? I don’t know. I’m not writing from a place where I overcame my fear, I’m still trying to sort it all out. I have no idea how to overcome this fear for every moment I face the opportunity of rejection. I know that the almighty rule is that if you don’t face rejection, how can you get growth. I just have a really hard time allowing the possible rejection to come.

Earlier this year, I had a very hard time with rejection. Instead of being upfront with my thoughts and feelings, I lashed out at people and became negative and so mean.

When it comes to dating, rejection bothers me the most. I always trick myself into thinking that I fine with being “just friends” with the people I have feelings for because I start thinking that I could say something about my feelings and then things would change. The relationship could change or I’d never spoken to them again. Taking that next step has been petrifying. Honestly, the only time I actually did it, I was drunk.

Work wise, I want to create a new YouTube series about sex where I talk about my own experiences and then give info on helpful info on sex and all the things that go with it. This plan excited me when I started but now that I am ready to post. I am terrified to press upload. I wonder what the future would hold with this info out there. I keep thinking of all the bad that could possibly happen and I don’t think about the positive.

Well… I do when it comes to dating but then I have the fear of someone having to also deal with my emotions and feelings other than myself (even though my friends already do that) It’s all about those irrational fears.

My point is, I want to have a week of just saying “Fuck It” and see how things go. I want to post these videos and open up with everyone about my feelings nonstop and see how this shit goes because why am I choosing to live a life filled with regret and remorse. Why am I refusing to move forward? Why am I choosing to be of those nay sayers who love to tear me down? Fuck, why am I tearing myself down before the naysayers get to me?

I want to be in the moment and be more open about everything instead of shutting myself off to all the great that could possibly happen. If you’d like to join my week of “Fuck It”. Let me know and let’s keep each other accountable.

Only a week because I wanna see how it feels. I’ll probably carry on with it afterward but I am a fan of trials.

Thanks for reading!