I’m going to start another blog post where i wrote throughout the day. I’m going to work this morning and my job is in white plains which means I need to spend $20 to get there and back. I want to have a conversation with them about this because the distance is too much for me to travel there during the winter time. I want to be more confident in saying what I need and doing what’s best for me.
I’ve been exhausted for weeks and if I put some time for me to have some space, maybe things would be better. That being said. Just being at home. Waking up in my own bed, my own space. Feels so good. Especially having so many options right outside my door. Being at school reminds me how trapped I am. I can’t wake up in the morning and grab a smoothie. I can’t just hop on a train and go anywhere. I like having choices.
Finally gonna be done with traveling to work.its been so fucking long. I’m tired
I got a call from my gyn saying that my depression levels weren’t okay and that I need to really take time for myself because no one is holding a gun to my head telling me to overexert myself. She’s 100% right. She sent me the info for a doctor at home and I also have an appointment with a nutritionist when i get home. I just want to work on my mental and physical health when I’m home. It’s so easy to take care of myself at home. More outlets.
QUICK! I’m on break. I gotta go soon!
Work is dope. I love working at B&N. I love being around all these awesome people. Today, I bought two books. Check my insta. Everyone is so nice and kind and funny. One girl watches doctor who. I like the environment here.
I also spent a shit ton of money and I really wanna go buy pillows at target after work but I’m not sure if I should. I need them though!
I’m home now, I’ve eaten more leftovers and mommy has on hallmark movies. I’m drinking peppermint tea and though my body is exhausted. I’m actually happy. I know i have a lot on my plate but I’m making money, I’m with my family and I AM ALMOST DONE WITH FUCKING SCHOOL. I have two more weeks of working and going to school. Then it’s finals week. I really need a ride to come back home. I wish i could start packing now. Lol. It feels so good being at home. The thought of coming home to my family is amazing. I MISS BROOKLYN! Just thinking about going back to school, ugh. I miss my friends. I didn’t even see some of my besties. Ah well. It is what it is. I’m just happy that I’m getting shit done and working hard.
I am so tired so, tea and then bed! I’m so excited to hang out with my friend tomorrow and get some yummy lobster!