I realized that I am so uncertain about what I write and because of that, ideas for YouTube videos and blog posts come so slowly. A small part of me started giving up on writing because I kept having this thought that I am not where I want to be yet. I have these ideas of where to go but figuring out which steps to take is difficult for me.
I started reading The Celestine Prophecy, this is a bit of the bio: The Celestine Prophecy contains secrets that are currently changing our world. Drawing on ancient wisdom, it tells you how to make connections among the events happening in your own life right now…and lets you see what is going to happen to you in the years to come!
I won’t give any spoilers, for it is already in the bio, but the opening speaks about the universe connecting things in your life and this made me think. What are the odds that someone would give me a book about universal connections in a time where I feel so lost in my creative life?
While reading this, I kept hearing the same thing, I’d talk to a friend and they’d remind me that I am a writer. I’d speak to a teacher and they’d tell me to work on certain areas of my writing, I’d meet writers who are making a career out of writing and seriously what are the odds?
By the end of this week, I will officially be done with work and I wondered what to do after. I know now that this summer, I need to do anything that will help me get to the writer’s lifestyle that I want.
I have my own image of a writer/creator’s life. First, I’ll need a dog. lol. I just really want my own dog. I’ve said it before, how stress gets to me and how my anxiety hits me like a wrecking ball. I think it would be nice for me to have a pup. Anyways, I’ll need candles everywhere, cool and comfy clothes, a huge library. I can see myself in a really cozy apartment walking around with cups of tea. There is an aesthetic that I desire.
Prior to receiving this book, I remember announcing to my friend how much I want this lifestyle for myself. I want it so badly. I’m really going to start working towards that. I promised my teachers that I’d really work on my writing, I mean rereading and having someone look over my writing before I send it in. It’s a habit for me to just send things out once it’s finished and just hope for the best but that is no way to grow.
I feel like this year is all about experience and growth that’s all I’m doing. I know that it’s all a process and that I will achieve what I desire soon. There are just steps, levels to the shit.
Now for recommendations, I think you should go and check out my London vlog.
Read the Celestine Prophecy, it’s a book that is handed from friend to friend, Let’s pretend like I’m handing it over to you. The Overdrive app which is a digital library, literally is, use your library card to access it. The Celestine Prophecy is there for you to check out.
I bought Children of Blood and Bone, though I can’t read it yet, I think y’all should. I know it’s worthy of the recommendation.
Sabrina Claudio! her music makes me want to buy a beach house with big windows and walk around in lingerie. It’s so sultry. I love it. I got put onto this by my friend Shelbie who has her own show on her campus radio called Vibin’ W/ Shelbzz here is a link.