May Wrap-Up

Hello, homies

I read far fewer books than I initially anticipated. I didn’t think I’d need so much time to rest after the semester ended. I kind of thought I’d be able to jump back into the swing of things but as you know, I chilled out a lot.

I’ve been rereading the Mortal Instruments series, I finished City of Glass and now I’m onto City of Fallen Angels. I really do enjoy this series. Now that I’m rereading it. I noticed that it’s kind of like its own fanfiction. Like Cassandra Clare loved her characters so much she gives them certain victories. Shipping her own characters. It’s biblical fanfiction turned into loving its own fanfiction. I love this shit.

City of Glass (The Mortal Instruments, #3)City of Fallen Angels (The Mortal Instruments, #4)

I finished reading Children of Blood and Bone. It gets 6/5 stars. It’s so good. I have the audiobook and I want to reread it before I write up my very first book review on this site. I freaking love Tomi Adeyemi. It sucks that I can’t see her at BookCon this weekend but I am still excited to go. I have a BookCon ticket for this Saturday. I can’t wait.

Children of Blood and Bone (Legacy of Orïsha, #1)

I finished The Celestine Prophecy, I gave it 3/5 stars because though the information given was perfect and well needed. I feel like there was a lot of rambling and unnecessary information. I found it hard to read at certain points. I love that the intention of the book is to be handed from person to person and that it is about life giving you what you need in certain moments. Some things just felt forced.

The Celestine Prophecy (Celestine Prophecy, #1)

I think it’s funny how little I read. I honestly thought that I read a lot but looking at this list… It makes sense though. No complaints. I know I’ll read more next month when I’m back on my feet.

A June TBR will be up soon!

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“Growing Pains”

Hello, all!

Let me start this off by saying, the transition of coming home this time around is much harder than I first anticipated. I’ve been sick and fatigued. Today, I started feeling trickles of depression so, I know that what I need to do today is write.

This may sound weird but since I’ve been back, waking up has been the hardest. I wake up and my whole body is achy and sore. Just moving around has bee painful.

I have this thing that doctors always call “growing pains”. I would go to the doctor when I was ten with knee problems and they’d say it was “growing pains”. For some reason, I’ve had issues with my joints which I tend to let get in the way. I had so many desires to be athletic and then some part of my body would hurt.

Last year, I jumped down some steps while drunk and hurt an ankle and a knee. Then somehow my wrists started hurting again. These aches went away but then last December, I tripped while hiking and my right ankle was sprung.

The injury didn’t have the time to properly heal because retail work keeps you on your feet. Six months later, the pain went from one foot up to my hip and then to the other foot. My body started compensating for the imbalance and now, moving makes me feel like an old woman.

Now that I’m home, my doctor said that this injury is taking far too long to heal and so, I am in the process of figuring out what’s up with scans and soon, physical therapy.

This summer, I wanted to start running. I just had a feeling that if I ran, I can get a better handle on my anxiety and all the pressure I’ve felt all year. I guess I’m feeling kind of thrown because now that I’m back, I can’t do what I planned. I’m taking a step back to try and see what my other options could be. Now that the day is ending, I realized I can still focus on my daily yoga instead of feeling so sorry for myself and my inability to run.

Being home tends to make me feel stressed because I feel like people expect so much from me. I feel like everyone wants me to do something or be someone for them and I’m trying to sort everything out for myself. Trying to sort out my placement and getting boundaries now that I have returned. A fellow blogger named Nia mentioned that she intentionally takes time to get herself on track when she returns home. Please read her post, it’s really good.

I’ve been kinda getting into my witchy stuff. My lavender plant is kind of dying and I need to recharge my crystals to give me positive energy and all that jazz! I want to find other options to adjust and get myself back into it. It made me feel so good and clear when I focused on my witchy stuff so, it’s definitely gonna be back in my life. I also started reading A Discovery of Witches by Deborah Harkness. It’s a well-loved series and I’m slowly getting into it. I got the book on Audible and I bought the book the first time I went to London.

I’m slowly getting hopeful as I write this post. A total change of moods! I want to start writing again and I want to post them on my blog. I want to write stories, book reviews/bookish posts, foodie posts. I just really want to wake up ready for the day and then I can get through my Summer To-Do List

Recommendations:

One blog that I started to follow, dearmyclosestfriend on Tumblr, has all of these awesome tips that I think would help me out if I implemented the advice into my life. I am loving advice columns ATM. It’s helping me get some things in check. Tonight, I will be going to bed at 10 and I will be putting myself on a schedule.

This Is Us, again, it is an amazing show and I just finished it!

My sister visited this weekend which was great. She recommended I watch Killing Eve. I’m definitely gonna start binging now.

So, College Drained You

Hello, I kind of forgot how to blog so bear with me!

If you’ve been reading my blog as of late, then you know how hard this semester has been for the past few months. I’ve been busting my butt trying to get all my work done and going to work and trying to squeeze in my own personal time in between that.

Now that the semester is over, I’ve found myself still trying to do a million and one things at once. I filled up my first week back with so many activities and now that my first week is done. I am sick and my body is so sore.

My body was killing me as the semester ended, I was told that my mental exhaustion was reflecting in my body and knowing that, I still chose to busy my body with loads of tasks.

I spent a lot of my time back not listening to myself or my body. I tried jumping back into the swing of things by trying to get a job and meet with friends and so what my family desired. I found myself giving my energy away to everyone around me and not focusing on myself.

I planned so many things for my time back home and I was so eager to get everything done as soon as possible. I wanted to work off all of my stress-eating weight (I gained weight during the semester), I wanted to jump into my senior project and blog. I wanted to get a job. I tried to force it all into one week and felt drained because I didn’t do what I planned to do.

Now that the first week is over, I’ve had time to notice my mistakes because it’s all caught up with me. I’ve been laying in bed sick for two days now. It’s nice, I’ve been resting and trying to organize myself and thoughts in a less stressful way.

I noticed that my thoughts tend to get super jumbled and that my desires have been mixed up and to help this out, I’ve decided to journal at least every night to get all these thoughts out.

I didn’t acknowledge how draining last semester was, I kept a lot of my thoughts and feelings inside and kind of forgot how to voice them so I’m practicing by writing them all out.

I noticed how important it is to be softer with myself and to listen. I listen to what other people say I should be doing. Like immediately getting a job once I returned from college. I have every intention to work this summer, I just also know that in order for me to move forward, I need to recenter myself. I need to really understand myself and my next step.

This weekend I was so close to having a panic attack by trying to go with what was expected of me. I couldn’t find what I needed to calm myself down so I went to a great friend, Alex, who does not read my blog. lol. She helped me get through it and though she told me to just stay home and rest, I went out. My experience was positive and I had no regrets about going. I just know now that I am going to follow the flow of my body in the future and not force anything.

I keep second guessing what I put out into the universe. I think far too much before I post a post or edit a video. Which can be good in order to put out what I’m passionate about but sometimes, I just refuse to put up good content.

All that being said, here are so recommendations and revelations:

You gotta do what calms you down physically and mentally. I’ve been binging shows and soon I’ll start getting back into books. I need things that don’t require a lot of thought because my headspace isn’t too clear. Rest your body. Take a bath, get a massage, lay in bed. Chillax.

TV shows: Watch This Is Us. I just started and I’m wrapped up in it. Brooklyn Nine-Nine is gold. Agents of Sheild was wild af. Adventure time is poppington and so is Steven Universe. While writing this, I am watching Children of the Whales.

Relationships change, it can be from differences of opinions or lack of understandings. People change and relationships change. Now that I’m back, so many things are different and a lot of it makes me very uncomfortable. What I learned from last night’s journaling is that I can keep negative feelings or I can chose to move forward and be positive. I can stay mad about something that can’t be changed or I can move on.

A lot of things are coming to light and I noticed that I am very nice and nice to people who don’t give me the same in return. I feel like part of why I’ve been drained is because I’ve been overcompensating for the lack of balance in some of my relationships. Once again, I recommend discussing it and then move on because it needs to be out there.

Change up your space. I rearranged the furniture in my room and threw some things out in the hopes of changing my mindset and it totally helped. There are still things that need to be done but I’m loving it.

Writing has become my safe space and I am excited to sit in my comfy room and write half of my novel this summer!

Thanks for reading!

May TBR

Hello Hello! 

I will be starting something new this summer! Monthly TBRs (cool people lingo for To Be Read). I am super excited to begin. I’ve been wanting to do these for a while and I am ready to begin. The system will be doing a TBR on my blog and then be doing a Wrap-up on my YouTube channel so head over there. I’ll let you know when it’s up on my Instagram.

So far, I’ve finished rereading City of Ashes by Cassandra Clare. Rereading helps me get through stress so it’s been pretty good. I kind of want to reread the whole series because I miss reading Cassandra Clare’s writing, the world of Shadowhunters is so good! I can’t wait to read Queen of Air and Darkness. it comes out December 4th. I CANNOT WAIT!City of Ashes (The Mortal Instruments, #2)
Now for the books, I will be reading after these damned finals are done!

First will totally be Children of Blood and Bone by Tomi Adeyemi. FUCK! I HAVE BEEN DYING TO READ THIS BOOK!  I heard about this author like a year or two ago. People said she was going to be the next J.K Rowling. Student title but it drew me in. I can’t wait to read this baby! It’s totally gonna be in my senior project!
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Sarah J. Maas is one of my favorite authors and I love everything she writes. The last book of the A Court of Thorns and Roses series was so damn good and now there is A Court of Frost and Starlight. It’s a novella and although I heard, nothing really happens. I really do miss the characters so I am excited!
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I’ve been wanting to read A Discovery of Witches. This one since I got it two years ago in London. I just got the audiobook on audible to ensure that I read it this month. I’m very excited to read it. I hard so many amazing things about this book and I’m looking forward to reading it.

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Now onto Half of a Yellow Sun! I love my black authors! I picked this book up when I was in London. I’m really interested in reading books by black authors. There aren’t many books with people who look like me.

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Now for my three comics. My comics have been on my shelf for far too long so I’m excited to read as much as possible.  Batman/Superman: Volume 1 & Volume 2.

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These are the books I plan on reading but sometimes I just throw new books into the mix. Check out my wrap up video to see all the books I’ve read.

Thanks for reading my very first TBR post!

The Summer of Writing

Hello All!

My junior year is coming to an end. THANK GOD! I am definitely stressed but I’m also really excited for summer to begin!

I want this summer to be fun and filled with writing and reading. By this time next year, I hope to be graduating college with my Bachelor’s degree which means that I have to write my 40-page senior project. I definitely want to start writing this summer along with blogging and writing my novel!!!

I’ve been so excited, I even compiled a summer to do list!

Summer List:
Go to three museums
Go to the pool, a waterpark and/or a beach
BookCon (I got tickets. Let me know if you’re going!)
Read (Leisure and for my Senior Project)
Find places to write
Go to writing workshops
Go to 3 writing/reading events (BookCon counts)
Walk. LOADS! Across bridges, around parks, etc.
Clothes shopping (I feel like I have no clothes)
Botanic Gardens (Flowers make me sneeze but they’re so pretty)
FOOOOOD! I want to try out restaurants and recipes. I will be going vegan this summer so hit me up with some recommendations!
(I also want to show some restaurants and recipes of my own so look out for my channel as well as my blog)
I want to revamp my youtube channel and post some vlogs so check me out!
I also want to hang out with my best friends and my loving family. I miss them all. My summer will be amazing with them all with me.

I want to prepare myself, for my summer of fun and writing so I’ve gotta pile up on some stationery!

My go-to journal has always been Moleskine notebooks. They’re so nice and I always love that pocket in the back of the journals where I store memories. I currently have a small notebook for bullet journaling and a bigger Hufflepuff (my Hogwarts house) notebook. That will be for my creative writing and thoughts. I just need to buy one for my Senior Project writing and ideas. I’m just debating if I should get a cute color or just go black.

To go along with my journals, I tend to have lost pages in my journals. One day, I’d write a story and the next, it would be a journal entry. I don’t have a way of organizing my journals so I want to get one of those post-its tabs. They will also help with my summer reading. I need to read books for my Senior Project and I’d need to label some parts for quotes.

I’ve been really dying to buy loads of black pens (for some reason, I hate blue pens). I want to find the perfect pen for me and then buy loads. I am on a pen journal, Y’all!

I have so many highlighters, markers, pencils and colored pens. I just checked out my stash and I have way more than I thought I had. I love Zebra Mildliner highlighters. They’re aesthetic and pretty af.

I want to get on this stationery aesthetic flow lol. I’ve been doing my research. I want to be more organized and get myself focused on life. Enjoying every day with my family, friends and my passions, writing and reading. This summer will be brilliant!

Finals recommendations:
Remember that college is just college. It doesn’t define who you are. If you fail a class, it’s really frustrating but you will get through it. There is so much pressure that comes with college and everyone telling you to be perfect in all of your studies. It’s really difficult. it’s important to take a step back and check in with yourself and you’re feeling. if you’re like me. You’d probably try to avoid everyone until the stress of finals is over. I’ve also been becoming a stress-eater which sucks. I want to start jogging to get off this stress weight.

Take a bath, drink tea, stress eat if you need to. Eat your comfort foods, and live in a comfortable sweater. Just remember to do the little things that make you happy. I went to see Infinity War twice and talked with my best friends. Go party and also organize your time so that you don’t have a pile-up of things at the very last second.

I’ve been rereading the Mortal Instruments series by Cassandra Clare. It helps to reread novels while I’m stressing because I already know how the story ends so I don’t need to focus too hard on what is happening in the story.

I just finished binging Brooklyn Nine-Nine which was AMAZING! It broke my heart when I was all caught up this morning. Now, what do I watch?