Adulting

Howdy ho bucko (Let’s pretend I didn’t write that and move on)

I’m both excited and also terrified that I’m almost done with school. I feel like any senior feels the same.

I feel totally overwhelmed. I keep trying to get myself to chill and relax and just get my shit done without stress and without fuss but I feel like there is SO MUCH that needs to be done.

I have this one teacher who keeps piling on work and she expects us all to finish our senior project work while she gives us a fuck ton of reading.

I’m really trying to keep my cool and stay focused and get all this work done.

I have all these awesome goals and dreams for my future and I think it’s crazy that it’s right there. I can almost touch it. I just need to get through this semester. I graduate in May but for next semester, I will be staying home. I have three classes to finish, my senior project class (it’s not a physical class, just finishing my senior project with the help of a few teachers). I can do an internship for some credit and I hope beyond hope that I get it in a literary, writing/reading field. It would make me so damn happy! I can imagine myself working on my writing in a cafe in the city. Like I seriously cannot wait. Then I have one more class to take and I want to take a science class. I LOVE science with all my freaking heart. I want to write some dope ass sci/fi and I think it wouldn’t heart to learn a bit of science. I just need to see what kind of classes they have for next semester.

I’m kinda looking forward to the next adventure but I gotta finish off this semester super strong so that I could finish on a high note. lol

I’m gonna be hella responsible and get shit done.

Well, I’m gonna try my very best. I’ll be posting again tomorrow night! Look out!

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Doctor Who Season 11 episode 1: quick review

Heyyyyooooo

I first want to chat about how hard it was getting the live stream like omg! I tried getting it 30 minutes before the episode started and 15 after it began. It doesn’t hold up very well.

I watched this episode twice while at work (I’m a student working in the library on a Sunday, there’s literally nothing to do but watch Doctor Who and do homework).

First off, the opening was awesome, I’m loving the number of characters of color, I’m so tired of watching shows with an insane amount of white characters as if the world only has white people, it was very refreshing.

I thought it was interesting to have a character who has bad coordination, I was really into the family dynamics, a boy, Ryan, with his grandmother, Grace, her new husband, Graham, an old friend from school Yasmin “Yaz”. WHAT A GANG! What a Fam! Lol

Okay, onto the doctor, Jodie is such an amazing doctor. The Doctor typically seems unfocused but focused. I always love the first episode after regeneration because they just seem so lost which makes the episode such a big adventure.

I also really loved that she couldn’t remember her name like you’re fighting an alien with teeth engrained into his face and being a total badass but can’t remember your name. She can solve the mysteries, build her own sonic (that was such a badass scene because typically the tardis gives them a sonic, I’m sure it was to show that woman can build and be engineers). She’s a powerful genius woman who cannot remember her name. The post-regeneration doctor is always the funniest.

I hate that the Grace died because there is a HUGE lack of black women on tv, especially as leads. I know that she wasn’t supposed to be in the series but it would’ve been nice. She was also super badass. I love her sense of adventure and I’m sorry to see her go.

I don’t have any complaints about this episode. I’m just upset that I have to wait a week for the next episode.

I think Jodie did an amazing job and I’m really happy that she’s the doctor. She’s super caring and apologizes for the horrors that the people around her faces. She went to the funeral for Grace. She’s just the dopest. I think it’s different from the others because Capaldi didn’t seem to give a shit about what happened to others.

Also, Ears pierced so badassery leveled up.

I’m starting up #blogtober so there will be a new post up tomorrow!

The Books I Couldn’t Put Down (Part 2)

Hello! We are back at it again!

I actually forgot about making this post. I was going to blog about being hella sick for an entire week and needing to still do homework and go to work. It’s been so tiring. I’m slowly getting better. Also, I have this huge desire to buy books but I’m too busy to read them and too broke to buy them. Look out for next week’s post on the books that I’d buy if I could.

Now, back to the list!
Illuninae by Amie Kaufman and Jay Kristoff

Illuminae (The Illuminae Files, #1)This morning, Kady thought breaking up with Ezra was the hardest thing she’d have to do. This afternoon, her planet was invaded.

The year is 2575, and two rival megacorporations are at war over a planet that’s little more than an ice-covered speck at the edge of the universe. Too bad nobody thought to warn the people living on it. With enemy fire raining down on them, Kady and Ezra—who are barely even talking to each other—are forced to fight their way onto an evacuating fleet, with an enemy warship in hot pursuit.

But their problems are just getting started. A deadly plague has broken out and is mutating, with terrifying results; the fleet’s AI, which should be protecting them, may actually be their enemy; and nobody in charge will say what’s really going on. As Kady hacks into a tangled web of data to find the truth, it’s clear only one person can help her bring it all to light: the ex-boyfriend she swore she’d never speak to again.

I FUCKING LOVE THIS FUCKING TRILOGY!!!!!
I recommend this book to everyone, not only because it’s so well written but the book itself is filled with art and it’s so creative! The audiobook is action-packed. I felt like I was in the book living with all the characters on this kick-ass adventure. I devoured the first two books and waited impatiently for the third and then I devoured that! It was so damn GOOOD!

The Ravens Boys by Maggie Stiefvater

The Raven Boys (The Raven Cycle, #1)“There are only two reasons a non-seer would see a spirit on St. Mark’s Eve,” Neeve said. “Either you’re his true love . . . or you killed him.”

It is freezing in the churchyard, even before the dead arrive.

Every year, Blue Sargent stands next to her clairvoyant mother as the soon-to-be dead walk past. Blue herself never sees them—not until this year, when a boy emerges from the dark and speaks directly to her.

His name is Gansey, and Blue soon discovers that he is a rich student at Aglionby, the local private school. Blue has a policy of staying away from Aglionby boys. Known as Raven Boys, they can only mean trouble.

But Blue is drawn to Gansey, in a way she can’t entirely explain. He has it all—family money, good looks, devoted friends—but he’s looking for much more than that. He is on a quest that has encompassed three other Raven Boys: Adam, the scholarship student who resents all the privilege around him; Ronan, the fierce soul who ranges from anger to despair; and Noah, the taciturn watcher of the four, who notices many things but says very little.

For as long as she can remember, Blue has been warned that she will cause her true love to die. She never thought this would be a problem. But now, as her life becomes caught up in the strange and sinister world of the Raven Boys, she’s not so sure anymore.

I’ve read this book series twice and today I found out my coworker has also read this book so we just gushed about it together. I seriously love this series. I LOVE that witchy shit and this book just does it for me. I love Blue, I love Gansey, I love Ronan, I love Adam, I love my Aglionby boys! I love the minty goodness!

You Are a Badass by Jen Sincero & Let’s Pretend This Never Happened: A Mostly True Memoir by Jenny Lawson

You Are a Badass: How to Stop Doubting Your Greatness and Start Living an Awesome LifeIn this refreshingly entertaining how-to guide, #1 New York Times Bestselling Author and world-traveling success coach, Jen Sincero, serves up 27 bite-sized chapters full of hilariously inspiring stories, sage advice, easy exercises, and the occasional swear word. If you’re ready to make some serious changes around here, You Are a Badass will help you: Identify and change the self-sabotaging beliefs and behaviors that stop you from getting what you want, blast past your fears so you can take big exciting risks, figure out how to make some damn money already, learn to love yourself and others, set big goals and reach them – it will basically show you how to create a life you totally love, and how to create it now.

By the end of You Are a Badass, you’ll understand why you are how you are, how to love what you can’t change, how to change what you don’t love, and how to use The Force to kick some serious ass.

Let's Pretend This Never Happened: A Mostly True MemoirJenny Lawson realized that the most mortifying moments of our lives—the ones we’d like to pretend never happened—are in fact the ones that define us. In the #1 New York Times bestseller, Let’s Pretend This Never Happened, Lawson takes readers on a hilarious journey recalling her bizarre upbringing in rural Texas, her devastatingly awkward high school years, and her relationship with her long-suffering husband, Victor. Chapters include: “Stanley the Magical, Talking Squirrel”; “A Series of Angry Post-It Notes to My Husband”; “My Vagina Is Fine. Thanks for Asking”; “And Then I Snuck a Dead Cuban Alligator on an Airplane.” Pictures with captions (no one would believe these things without proof) accompany the text.

I read these books in two different times of my life, I put the two of them together because they are both self-help books. Jenny Lawson discusses growing with her mental health issues and becoming an awesome woman. She cracks jokes about herself and her experiences which makes the book so freaking comforting. I seriously loved it.

I swear reading You Are A Badass got me two jobs. I applied and aced my interviews and have been getting jobs ever since. I stopped doubting my greatness and came in with confidence and I GOT THE JOBS! Now, I just gotta get myself an internship… and then an actual job.

Aristotle & Dante Discover the Secrets of the Universe by Benjamin Alire Sáenz

Aristotle and Dante Discover the Secrets of the Universe (Aristotle and Dante Discover the Secrets of the Universe, #1)Aristotle is an angry teen with a brother in prison. Dante is a know-it-all who has an unusual way of looking at the world. When the two meet at the swimming pool, they seem to have nothing in common. But as the loners start spending time together, they discover that they share a special friendship—the kind that changes lives and lasts a lifetime. And it is through this friendship that Ari and Dante will learn the most important truths about themselves and the kind of people they want to be.

THIS BOOK IS SO FUCKING CUTE! I FUCKING CRIED!!!! I feel like that’s all I have to say, just that I cried. Not many books have ever made me cry but this one did. I can’t wait for book number two.

LITERALLY ANYTHING CASSANDRA CLARE!  (In the world of Idris)
I’m hesitant about her as a person because I hear a lot of crazy things but I adore her writing. The Dark Artifices is what I’ve been reading by her as of late. She has a collection of short stories that she’d been putting out that I’d love to finally start reading.

Six of Crows by Leigh Bardugo
Six of Crows (Six of Crows, #1)Ketterdam: a bustling hub of international trade where anything can be had for the right price–and no one knows that better than criminal prodigy Kaz Brekker. Kaz is offered a chance at a deadly heist that could make him rich beyond his wildest dreams. But he can’t pull it off alone…

A convict with a thirst for revenge.

A sharpshooter who can’t walk away from a wager.

A runaway with a privileged past.

A spy known as the Wraith.

A Heartrender using her magic to survive the slums.

A thief with a gift for unlikely escapes.

Six dangerous outcasts. One impossible heist. Kaz’s crew is the only thing that might stand between the world and destruction—if they don’t kill each other first.

I legit couldn’t put this book down. I love Leigh Bardugo, I love how cold and eery her writing can be but it’s super comforting too. It’s amazing.

Alright! Thanks for reading! I hope you’ve enjoyed! I’ll be posting again next week!

Recommendations:
WATCH HILDA ON NETFLIX!!!
Be bold, step out your comfort zone
Watch This is US

The Books I Couldn’t Put Down (Part 1)

Hello!

I’ve been avidly reading since high school and back then, it seemed so easy for me to time find books that I instantly fell in love with. I’d read book after book if it were a series or I’d read everything the author has written if it were standalone. It seemed like there were so many good books around me but in reality, when you’re new to the craft, everything is just amazing. lol.

Now that I’m years into reading, it’s been so hard for me to find books that I could just pick up and devour. I am not at all saying that there aren’t great books out there, I just mean there are good books and then there are books that just sweep you away and you just refuse to put it down.

I want to show you guys the books I’ve found love for since I started going to school. (I tried to narrow it down… after looking at my Goodreads. I’m surprised there are this many.)

Three Dark Crowns by Kendare Blake
When kingdom come, there will be one.
Three Dark Crowns (Three Dark Crowns, #1)
In every generation on the island of Fennbirn, a set of triplets is born—three queens, all equal heirs to the crown and each possessor of a coveted magic. Mirabella is a fierce elemental, able to spark hungry flames or vicious storms at the snap of her fingers. Katharine is a poisoner, one who can ingest the deadliest poisons without so much as a stomachache. Arsinoe, a naturalist, is said to have the ability to bloom the reddest rose and control the fiercest of lions.

But becoming the Queen Crowned isn’t solely a matter of royal birth. Each sister has to fight for it. And it’s not just a game of win or lose…it’s life or death. The night the sisters turn sixteen, the battle begins.

The last queen standing gets the crown.

I was a bit surprised by how quickly I fell for this book. I picked it up because I discovered it at BookCon. I have a deck of cards for this book series that I got from BookCon. I figured I should read the book and see what the hype was about. Then I fell in love. I told myself that I can’t start reading the 3rd book until I’ve finished my senior project work.

To All the Boys I’ve Loved Before by Jenny Han

To All the Boys I've Loved Before (To All the Boys I've Loved Before, #1)To All the Boys I’ve Loved Before is the story of Lara Jean, who has never openly admitted her crushes, but instead wrote each boy a letter about how she felt, sealed it, and hid it in a box under her bed. But one day Lara Jean discovers that somehow her secret box of letters has been mailed, causing all her crushes from her past to confront her about the letters: her first kiss, the boy from summer camp, even her sister’s ex-boyfriend, Josh. As she learns to deal with her past loves face to face, Lara Jean discovers that something good may come out of these letters after all.

I’ll admit that I only picked this book up because I knew it was going to be a Netflix movie but I still loved it. The book was so well done and so was the movie. I read book 2 and soon, I’ll read the book. My issue is that during my semesters, I prefer audiobooks because they’re more convenient and since the last book recently came out, getting an audiobook from the library for it is a bit difficult.

The Fifth Season by N.K Jeminsin

The Fifth Season (The Broken Earth, #1)This is the way the world ends. Again.

Three terrible things happen in a single day. Essun, a woman living an ordinary life in a small town, comes home to find that her husband has brutally murdered their son and kidnapped their daughter. Meanwhile, mighty Sanze — the world-spanning empire whose innovations have been civilization’s bedrock for a thousand years — collapses as most of its citizens are murdered to serve a madman’s vengeance. And worst of all, across the heart of the vast continent known as the Stillness, a great red rift has been torn into the heart of the earth, spewing ash enough to darken the sky for years. Or centuries.

Now Essun must pursue the wreckage of her family through a deadly, dying land. Without sunlight, clean water, or arable land, and with limited stockpiles of supplies, there will be war all across the Stillness: a battle royale of nations not for power or territory, but simply for the basic resources necessary to get through the long dark night. Essun does not care if the world falls apart around her. She’ll break it herself, if she must, to save her daughter.

I had to read this to do my senior project but I love it. At first, I thought it was dragging in the story but then I reread it and now I totally get everything! All the little twists and turns. Sooo good! I just got the second book, Obelisk Gate. I can’t wait to devour it!

A Darker Shade of Magic by V.E Schwab

A Darker Shade of Magic (Shades of Magic, #1)
Kell is one of the last Antari—magicians with a rare, coveted ability to travel between parallel Londons; Red, Grey, White, and, once upon a time, Black.

Kell was raised in Arnes—Red London—and officially serves the Maresh Empire as an ambassador, traveling between the frequent bloody regime changes in White London and the court of George III in the dullest of Londons, the one without any magic left to see.

Unofficially, Kell is a smuggler, servicing people willing to pay for even the smallest glimpses of a world they’ll never see. It’s a defiant hobby with dangerous consequences, which Kell is now seeing firsthand.

After an exchange goes awry, Kell escapes to Grey London and runs into Delilah Bard, a cut-purse with lofty aspirations. She first robs him, then saves him from a deadly enemy, and finally forces Kell to spirit her to another world for a proper adventure.

Now perilous magic is afoot, and treachery lurks at every turn. To save all of the worlds, they’ll first need to stay alive.

I love V.E Schwab all summer. I wanted to read everything she’s ever written and then I realized it was far too ambitious. I love being in worlds of magic. It always makes me happy and the characters were also so kick ass! LOVED IT!

Children of Blood and Bone by Tomi Adeyemi
Children of Blood and Bone (Legacy of Orïsha, #1)
They killed my mother.
They took our magic.
They tried to bury us.

Now we rise.

Zélie Adebola remembers when the soil of Orïsha hummed with magic. Burners ignited flames, Tiders beckoned waves, and Zélie’s Reaper mother summoned forth souls.

But everything changed the night magic disappeared. Under the orders of a ruthless king, maji were killed, leaving Zélie without a mother and her people without hope.

Now Zélie has one chance to bring back magic and strike against the monarchy. With the help of a rogue princess, Zélie must outwit and outrun the crown prince, who is hell-bent on eradicating magic for good.

Danger lurks in Orïsha, where snow leoponaires prowl and vengeful spirits wait in the waters. Yet the greatest danger may be Zélie herself as she struggles to control her powers and her growing feelings for an enemy.

TOMI IS A FUCKING GODDESS! I LOVE HER AND HER WRITING! I NEED TO READ THE NEXT BOOK. I PRAY TO ALL THE GODS I GET TO RECEIVE AN ARC! THIS WOMAN IS FUCKING GOLD!!!!!!!!!!!! The book was ten out of ten and I want more from her.

The Diviners by Libba Bray

The Diviners (The Diviners, #1)Evie O’Neill has been exiled from her boring old hometown and shipped off to the bustling streets of New York City—and she is pos-i-tute-ly ecstatic. It’s 1926, and New York is filled with speakeasies, Ziegfeld girls, and rakish pickpockets. The only catch is that she has to live with her uncle Will and his unhealthy obsession with the occult.

Evie worries he’ll discover her darkest secret: a supernatural power that has only brought her trouble so far. But when the police find a murdered girl branded with a cryptic symbol and Will is called to the scene, Evie realizes her gift could help catch a serial killer.

As Evie jumps headlong into a dance with a murderer, other stories unfold in the city that never sleeps. A young man named Memphis is caught between two worlds. A chorus girl named Theta is running from her past. A student named Jericho hides a shocking secret. And unknown to all, something dark and evil has awakened.

I was totally surprised by my love of this book series. I got book after book. I was swept away by the story. I seriously wish there were more books out there like this one because I think that Libba Bray had an amazing take on this book. Magic and murder all in the world of speakeasies. I loved it! I want more!

I feel like I should stop it here! Next week, I’ll post the rest of them.
Sidenote: If you’ve read my last post, I wanted to let you know that all my doctor did was give me a referral to a rheumatologist. She also told me everything I’ve already googled about my results. I don’t go to the doctor until the end of the November. In the meantime, I’m taking Vitamin D and B-12 and attempting a sleeping schedule. Hopefully, it works. I just have to wait.

Reccoemdnations: Get better doctors! Lol
BoJack Horseman (On Netflix)
Saiki K. (On Netflix)
Write little notes for yourself. Reminders and happy notes.

Thanks for reading!

Sunday Blues… I guess

Hey! 

I wanted to write something quick in the hopes to get over this bit of anxiety I’m feeling. So, damn near a month ago, I went to the doctor because I had months of constantly being tired. She did some bloodwork and the results say that it could indicate some kind of autoimmune disease. My doctor is stressing that she cannot tell me what it is over the phone and instead told me to schedule a doctor’s appointment.

I JUST went back to school which is two hours away and it is the busiest semester because it’s my senior year. I told her I wouldn’t be able to come in until the end of the month and she told me to wait until the end of the month and come in.

I have been stressed about this for weeks now!

Not only am I still feeling the same side effects butI’m also trying to get all my shit done!

I feel like I’m better at complaining about this vocally than writing. I should really get back into making videos.

I’ve been looking up my results and googling them. I went to a doctor on campus hoping she would give me info but literally sat there while she googled everything I did. Lol.

I am upset because I had to wait this long speculating and thinking about the worst case scenario. Did she not think I’d be worried about having some kind of disease from the results? That’s just ridiculous. Even in the results, It said that it could indicate SLE or drug-induced Lupus.

I swear there is nothing that woman could say to me that would make me feel like her silence was okay.

When it comes to my health! I feel like I deserve to be told what is wrong at the earliest convenience. If it’s something big or something small or something that needs more research. I should be told. Especially because I’m away at school and the thought of having a disease is constantly on my mind.

The thing is though, I knew something was wrong and as serious as an autoimmune disease is, I’d rather be told that I had it and learned of a way to feel better than being told that absolutely nothing is wrong with me.

When I tell people what’s going on, they always pray that it’s nothing but I think I’d hate that more. That would mean that this constant fatigue that is getting in the way of getting my work done and fucking up my focus is just all in my head. I feel like that’s worse.

I’ve gone to the doctor’s complaining about joint pain and they would say it’s “growing pains”. I found myself in so much pain that I refused to work out because it just hurt. They never gave me anything to help sort things out. I was just in pain to just be in pain.

Now I know that yoga does help with my joint pain but it’s still frustrating being in pain. You know? I wake up and get out of bed, landing on achy ankles. I try typing my homework or blog posts and my wrists begin to hurt. I want to find solutions to my body problems instead of being told that it’s just how my body is and feeling like it could be something more.

I went on a tangent. I’d say sorry but this is my stream of conscious blog post.

On Wednesday, I will be finally heading home and seeing my doctor. I am super nervous for the appointment but I also want to see what’s up. I will put up another post that night at work if I hear anything substantial.

This post is kinda just for me to have as a memory. I’m posting it just so that I can log this for future Djenne! 

I was hungover for an entire day.

Hey!

Okay, so… let me explain!

I wrote in a previous post about having to “break up” with a great friend and love. At the time, I felt like I had all my shit together. I felt like dumping a friend and moving forward was super easy and I felt like I really had it but then all of a sudden sadness hit me.

I was wondering how life would be with that friend in it and moping around about hypotheticals, I’m a REALLY SAPPY bitch. The first Friday back to school, I tried “drinking my feelings”. I was screaming to the entire campus about my sadness, taking shots of vodka, tequila, rum. I gave zero fucks about the next day. I wanted to go big because my feelings were hurt.

The next day, I felt like shit. obviously.

I thought that if I hydrated then I’d feel better.

That didn’t help. I laid in bed with my head spinning and wishing it would end. I was finally able to eat by the end of the night. Then I had work the next day for five hours.

I’m only mentioning all this so that you all can see my mistake and the gravity of it so that my next moves would make sense.

While at work, I finally had time to think without my head spinning. I noted how unhealthy my actions were. For me, a child of alcoholics, I go straight to drinking when I am hurting. Especially when my feelings get her. I wallow in every bad way possible. I eat food that’s bad for me and just all around sad.

It wasn’t until I had a session with my therapist that it finally clicked in my brain why I was behaving like this.

I have issues with my self-image. My father was an abuser to my sisters and me. We were constantly told that we weren’t good enough. I feel like it stuck with me. When I have issues in my relationships where I begin to feel like I’m not good enough, I lash out and start treating myself as such. I think it’s why I have such a hard time living a healthy lifestyle, it’s because a part of me doesn’t see myself as worthy of a healthy lifestyle.

I seriously hope that because I now have a conscious thought, I can now start caring for myself the way I deserve.

The thing is, I spent years not feeling like I was good enough in moments but still forcing myself to push through and keep moving forward.

“Like so what I am missing this relationship, I still have to stick to a blogging schedule.”

Then my blogging schedule will be fucked up (as it has been), and then I will still be sad about this heartbreak and not writing up my posts.

Let me clarify. This heartache I’m feeling, I don’t take the time to be patient and gentle with myself because I would feel like I am both not good enough and “strong” enough to get through it without taking time to sort out my feelings.

When it comes to my feelings, I have this idea that these feelings will go away quickly. I feel that even discussing it with some friends, it would be too annoying to complain so these feelings should end fast.

I’m finding it more and more important to be more gentle with myself. Reminding myself of how precious I am. I want to call myself “babe” and give myself patience and love because I deserve that!

My favorite thing about this year is all that I’ve been learning about myself and all the growth that is happening. I notice how much I’ve been changing.

I am not so excited about changing how I see and handle myself. I want to be handled with care by everyone around me but it all starts with myself.

Recommendations:
Watch Doctor Who & do an MCU binge
Do your work on weekends so you can chill all weekend
Don’t drink your feelings. Just learn how to get through it. Write letters to lost loves and take a bath or something.

My First CurlFest

I know this post is a LONG time coming but way back on July 21st, I went to my very first CurlFest. 

CurlFest is a festival where curly natural hair is promoted and a bunch of POC come through with our natural hair and enjoy each other and the discount and sometimes free hair products.

As I said before, it was my very first time going so I can tell you first hand how every other time went. I do know that they’ve changed their admissions process. Before admission was free and it was first come, first serve to get a goodie bag with hair care products. This time, you had to get a special ticket that was around $20, I believe in order to get the hair care goodie bag. I was super broke so I knew that I’d have to wait to get the free admissions ticket.

I busted my butt getting enough tickets online only to arrive and realize there was no ticketing process. CurlFest is in prospect park and there were no gates or admissions area that I saw in order to check to see who arrived. My crew and I just walked into the crowd.

I will say right now that CurlFest is such an amazing and beautiful festival. There were so many black people gathered around and appreciating and supporting each other. People were selling their art and good food. It was all smiles and good looks. I loved it. I love being surrounded by people who look like me. I felt so comfortable and happy. I freaking love my people. 

I’m not sure how CurlFest worked out in the past and I don’t know if my being late had any effect on this but it was super chaotic.

Once I got into the mix, there were so many lines and I had no idea what was being sold or given away. I was just on lines standing and waiting. The lines were so long and I gave up on so many of them because I didn’t feel like that line was worth it. I spent that time inline thinking about ways the process could be better.

When I went to BookCon, they had specific times when certain ARCs (Advanced readers copies) would drop. So each booth had a schedule of when people could come and wait for that specific book. 

I think if each booth scheduled at what time they would drop products, people would know what they are waiting for, when the allotted time will close and when of if they will start giving it away again.

For example, Shea moisturizer could giveaway a package of leave in conditioners between 12 and 1 and at 1, they will stop giving them away and if there is more then they give more away at the end or at 4pm.

Between that time they could give away the edge control gel from 1:30-2:30. And any remaining gel would be given away at the end or at 5. And then maybe do goodie bags at the very end. 

It’s a thought. I just felt like the system was confusing for me to navigate. My crew and I wandered and enjoyed every beautiful POC within an hour and then we left with a few free goodies we could get.

I am definitely going to CurlFest next year because I have a big love for black people. We are so amazing. I would just like to see more structure. I’ve gone to other festivals and conventions where there was more structure. I know that CurlFest is different because they giveaway products along with having discounted prices. This makes people very eager to participate and because of this, I think there needs to be a way to understand how to jump into it all.

I was standing on lines with no idea what I would receive at the end.